I’m so weak.
Alcohol drown me again, let me feel nothing for tonight.
Sudden burst of insight I had to write before I forgot. Alcohol does not make the pain go away it just makes it worse in me. It brings out my worst and makes me hate/regret everything I’ve done. And I become spiteful. So fucking spiteful it kills. I’m not doing this to make myself feel better. I’m doing this because I’ve been backed into a corner and I have an addiction and when I have no one around to give this spineless bastard a reassuring comment or a pat on the back I succumb to my greatest weakness. I am weak, I miss the inspiration I had before I came out to this podunk hell hole. I miss
Sydney, I miss my family. I miss my positive outlook. Fuck it all, I’m just having a bad night, ignore me. Keep ignoring me, but never forget me.