So i’m bored again, back to posting my problems. Hoping that by writing this all out I can find a solution. No one reads this so who cares. So here’s what I’m trying to work through. I’ve met a new girl. I can’t stop thinking about her. I know I know this is like par for the course for me. Something about her though…it’s mysterious. This didn’t start with sex this started with a conversation, an inspiration to get to know someone. My intrigue only continue to grow but she is with someone else. Someone who is controlling, abusive, manipulative. I beg her to leave but she cries that she can’t and I don’t understand but she wishes I could. I guess I don’t…I guess maybe I’m blind to my attraction. We are incredibly compatible…not sure if I’ve met someone who I have more in common with. I beg her to leave, to come to me instead but it falls on deaf ears. Am I crazy? Am I setting myself up for another heartbreak? More than likely I’ve been through this before. The fact remains that when I see she texts me, I do nothing but smile like a fool. When she calls I almost can’t answer the phone because I’m so excited to speak with her. She makes my heart leap with every thought. I’m drawn in, I’m hooked. I’m a fool. I feel like I’m in love yet it can’t be that yet. I just needed to get this off my chest. Thanks again tumblr for listening when I can’t speak to anyone else.